Saturday, May 5, 2012

What's In a Blog?

Or a blog title as it were.

Those who pay attention may have noticed that I have changed the name of my blog, yet again. And to be honest, I am not sure that I am totally stuck on this one either. That's the freedom that comes from having an eponymous URL. Or the downside perhaps, as it lets the indecisive in me rule a bit too much.

Also, those of you who pay attention may have noticed that I have been in a bit of a writing pause for quite awhile. Is it weird to blame this space? I write stellar blog posts in my mind, but when it comes to actually writing them down, I have no motivation. No desire. I hate to blame it on a lame excuse, because if I were a true writer it wouldn't matter where I wrote it, but I don't like the look of my blog right now and so I don't want to share my words in such a space.

Lame? Yes, perhaps. Shallow? Yes, perhaps. The way my mind works? Yes, definitely.

Not only do I bemoan the lack of pretties on the page, I also really struggle with being yet another one of the multitude. Everywhere I turn there is yet another blog, doing it awesomely. These people are writing stories that are mildly interesting and are getting hundreds of hits and comments. I don't.

My fault? Yes, perhaps.

Not that I necessarily want the responsibility that comes along with having hundreds of hits and comments. People can be mean, especially if they know they are protected by a computer screen.

However, I want to be heard. I have a voice and I want to keep it from getting too rusty. So I shall press on to write just to write. Enjoying the tapping of the keyboard, the pouring of the words and the emptying of the brain. After all, I am somebody am I not? I read my own writing, and that, for now, shall be good enough.